April 28
Drum Debut
I just performed drums with Byron and Karen at Bainbridge Island. An absolute first time! Hey, you need to know how much I was scared of it. A month ago, I have never drumed before. Not even dare to try. My mother always says that I have really bad rhythm, and I truly agreed with her. I was so self-conscious. It would be my worst nightmare to have to do such thing in front of people. To reveal my weak point. But hey, I think I did ok. And, I had so much fun!!
Even though I am bad at it, I can still learn it and do it, and have fun with it. When I see Karen drumming, I understand that it is not good or bad, it is PLAYING with the drums! The hollow space inside the drum draws you in, bounces you back. It is between you and the drum. It is so wonderful. It communicates with you, with your energy.
If I can see my qi(chi), I would like it to look like these Chinese drums. red, round, empty inside, and right in front of my center.
I was surprised and scared when Byron first asked me to join them. Does he know how bad I am? Doesn't he notice that I can't keep a beat? Is he embarrassed to ask me to stop? I would never have the courage if it is not Byron!
I am so glad that I did it. I didn't do great. But I did something I never thought I would do. And again, I had fun!!
妈妈一直说我节奏感差。比一般人差。我也一直这么觉得。反正跳舞毯都没有海涛玩得好。所以，跟着朋友欧阳打鼓，对我来说无比可怕。何况，还要演出。真是打死我，也不敢想。
今天，我们去演出了，结果，还不差。不仅不差，我还觉得十分地过瘾呢。
朋友欧阳让我参加的时候，我想怎么可能，我从来没学过啊。唱卡拉OK都找不着什么时候开始唱。一开始学的时候，真是越学越没信心，越坚信了自己不可能做得了。直到这个星期二见到Karen。她什么也没对我说，就是跟我一起打鼓。两张鼓紧挨着，我们站个对面。我觉得她胸口有一股很热的能量，很快就把我融在里面。她打鼓的时候很活，全身都在打鼓，所有的能量注意力都集中在鼓上。我放松了。结果发现打鼓震得很好玩。在Karen的感染下，觉得鼓很神。你给它能量，它又弹回给你，这能量有来有去，时收时放。一放松，什么事都容易很多。打得好不好先另说，首先得把鼓当鼓，不能把它当成自己的弱点，反复敲打，越敲越顽固。
虽然演出的时候还是出错，可是演的时候，很放松，很高兴。
以前觉得自己的弱项，一定做不好。一定要避免，要躲着。扬长避短嘛。其实没什么不可以的。
一个人很胖，难道不能喜欢跳舞？
五音不全，难道不能爱唱歌？
腿短，难道不能打篮球？
傻子，难道不能学认字？
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