March 21
Restart 终于更新了
日记停顿很久了。今天终又开张。这三个月中，因为我怀孕了，担心小孩，不知所措的，跳舞几乎停了。整天不动，觉得象废掉一样。另外，也在想一些头大的问题，比如自己的舞蹈何去何从。这些问题，我仍然没有答案。可是，上个星期，终于想明白了：我需要跳舞。需要日常的身体活动。否则，身体会像可溶物质一样，在时间的流水里冒泡，坍塌，消失掉。
去年春天，也在舞弄胳膊。这次的心得是肩胛骨的重要。
随便录了，编了，放上来。聊胜于无。
这个舞蹈日记是半私密的。希望能老实地记录自己的生活，自己身体的变化。就象我跳舞，想来想去，没有找到重大的意义或方向。只是明白了，自己得做。我为的是我的心，而已。
能在方寸之间，发挥操练自己的身体和心智，比起前几个月的无聊，是大大的进步了。
相信我的孩子也希望他妈的生活有意思。哈哈。
(It is hard to read the text on the video. Pretty much it is what follows. So no need to squeeze your eyes to figure those out from the video. it is all here.)
It has been a while. Guess what? I am pregnant. Worried by the baby's safty, all my familty told me to stop dancing. So I did. It was hell. At the same time, I was thinking some heady questions, like where my dancing is going. I still don't know the answer. But I do figure out one thing: I have to dance. Otherwise, my body would melt and disappear in the river of time.
This week, I was working on moving the shoulder and the arm. after watching a video by Vincent Dance Theater. I was so amazed by the dancer's upper body movement. I even emailed him. He is such a great dancer. Good dancers are really great artists. People often don't think of dancers as the artists, not like the choreographer, the composer. But they are. Following the video, I have been practice. Still fasinated by the powerful and unusual arm movement.
This dance diary is semi private. I just hope to be able to record my life and the changes of my body honestly. Just like my dancing. I can't find deep meaning. But I do know I have to do it, for my heart.
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